Trailing Thoughts

Today marks the third year without Angel and the 7th month beginning for our son. It was still tough to deal with it, but I will admit this year, it was easier with seeing my son’s smile and holding him in my arms. I still wonder what if…. would she have the same beautiful smile that my son has, would she look like her father, what would she enjoy doing… and unfortunately these questions are not destined to be answered, but always know my daughter has a piece of my heart. Lucien was appropriately named as he is my sun light when things appear bleak.
Angel will always be my first born and I long for more moments then the 15 minutes I had with her, but I am grateful for my son, never a replacement, but his own person that offers me another chance to experience the joy.