Trailing Thoughts

It has been 1 month since I lost my little girl, and I still cry every day. I have had a variety of thoughts and what ifs go through my head. I know that God works in mysterious ways and that everything happens for a reason, but I still question why. Madhujit and I want children and I think that we are going to make wonderful parents, and we are going to try again but life is unfair. I only got to hold my little girl for a few moments to last a whole life time. Who was she, a product of Madhujit and I, but already with an unique personality. Depending on the music I held over my stomach, she would move around more to certain songs. Life does continue and we are doing day- to- day activities, but it is always there. I want to remember her, look at her picture, because it gives me the opportunity to remember the love I felt for her, but it also brings back the despair of losing her.
I miss you Angel